Heyy. It's me, Zayn. (:
I know I haven't posted in a longg time, which I admit, is true. And I'm very sorry for that. I have to fit in ICA, my friends, my girlfriend, Internet time, basketball practice all in one. And most of the time, people would say there's too much internet time, and they need other stuff. For me it's the opposite. I'm actually LACKING Internet time. Weird, right? xD
Anyways, I made this set to show you the truth about me. Here goes.
Before year, I was a majorly depressed person. I was emo. I was goth. I was suicidal. I once layed out on the road to kill myself, as you saw in my collection, 'Zayn's COMPLETED bucket list!'. But all for a reason. Ever since my last break-up (With a certain ICA member), I was like that. Because when I was with her, I felt alive. But when we broke up, I was torn apart. Like little pieces of paper. And that ruined me. I attempted suicide many, many times. How you ask? All of the kinds. You name them. I went out to bars on midnight to dawn, alone, when everyone was sleeping. I gave myself scars. I dressed gothic-like. I once took drugs, but only for a week. I couldn't push the pain away. And I was never, ever, EVER happy. Not even for a second. Because ever since that breakup, I felt as if everyone wanted me to die, and I started to get this feeling maybe I should. And if it wasn't my own friends, it was the bullies at school. They're very strong. Strong enough to break all parts of my body. So I can't take up for myself.
Yes, I know what you're thinking. 'Shouldn't I be dead by now'. I would've been..
Until this one girl helped me out. She saw right through me, and found out my problems on her own, without any help from me. And that really helped me out. Her name you ask? Selena Gomez. She helped me through my problems, and made me who I am today. Even better than I was before. She actually made the bullies disappear from my life. Yes, her. (She's a lot tougher than you think. Probably explains why Gaga's close to her.)
So.. Yeah. That's my life. And right now, I made this set, because if there's anyone I want to thank, it's Selena. If she wasn't there, I probably would've been dead by now. And if it wasn't that, even worse than before. So.. Yeah.
Selena Marie Gomez, thank you. Thank you for giving me your caring nature when no one else can. Thank you for taking so much off your schedule just to help me recover. Thank you for being my friend. And most of all.. Thank you for taking the chance to actually be my girlfriend. And be in my whole life. They can go ahead and spread rumors about us, but that's ok. Because in a way.. They don't know about us. (;
I♥yousomuch<3
-Zayn, a.k.a your current boyfriend (Man, I love saying that :D)
@kylie-ica
Oh yeah! Forgot. xD
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